People Like Me

We don't have the same social needs as other people. We don't even understand the social needs of other people. As a matter of fact, it often astounds us just how socially needy most people. And romantically, it's even more muddled.

I'm turning twenty soon and I've never had a boyfriend. I've never had a date or even been asked out. I've never really even wanted a boyfriend. Nobody in particular. I've had a few mild crushes, but never any obsessions, not like on TV, or the girls who I hear talking on the bus. I know I'm attracted to men, but I don't feel any need to do much about it. SOmetimes i think it would be nice to have a snuggle buddy, but most of me just thinks it would be too exhausting.

When people tell us to do somthing we were already planning to do, we feel less inclined to actually do it. We don't like to be told things we already know, and we feel irrationally angry to be reminded of things we don't need reminded of. I don't know what this say about us.

Today I was planning on going to the bank to deposit some money. About fifteen minutes before I'd planned on leaving, my roommate told me that I should go to the bank to deposit the money. She just wanted to make sure that the money got deposited, but I resented her saying it; like she didn't trust me to remember myself. Then I felt like I couldn't leave right away to deposit it like I'd planned, because then it would look like I hadn't thought of it myself.